update

[zenithblue]

So yeah, remember when I was all worried I was going to be lonely while Hodge was in Houston? Ha, wasn't that adorable? It was almost like I forgot that I'm now in school. That I'd have, you know, homework.

I don't really have time to be lonely.

I used to be so good at school. Now I'm six years out of practice. It's not exactly like riding a bike. It's more like...playing a musical instrument, maybe. I'm getting the hang of it again but in the meantime my head hurts because I'm not used to reading the notes, and my hands are sore from being forced into fingerings I only half remember.

That metaphor went on a little bit too long. I can't help it; I get carried away.

In any case, school is good, things are good, but I'm a little overwhelmed right this minute. If I've been flaky in the communication department, apologies. I hope you're all well out there in internet-land.

I hope my theory isn't true, that you don't all cease to exist when I'm away from my blog. I don't want to imagine you all languishing in the cold void of space. My imaginary friend died when I was little because I forgot to feed it. I just can't face that kind of loss again.

Comments

Stop invading my brain!

[decemberthirty.livejournal.com]

Seriously, I mean it. I could have written almost every word of this post.

Re: Stop invading my brain!

[zenithblue.livejournal.com]

Maybe you *did* write every word of this post...maybe I'm the one in *your* head!!! OMG!!!1!

[bluescissors76.livejournal.com]

I feel myself turning invisible like Marty McFly and his siblings.

[zenithblue.livejournal.com]

My day totally needed one more excuse for me to visualize myself in a Delorean. Awesome.

[te-amo-azul.livejournal.com]

And then when you try to nimbly turn the pages of the score, you accidentally get more than one page so you have to quick turn it back without missing a beat. And you have to keep remembering to watch the conductor waving the baton and not getting distracted by the strings coming in late. And the metronome has this weird little tick every fourth tock and you find yourself wondering if it was there before and you just didn't hear it. And you remember how it was before and those memories flow into how it is now and you stream forward with the melody, the same melody but new and unique and perfect.

[zenithblue.livejournal.com]

Thank you for indulging my indulgences! You're right. The music's gonna come. Right now's just rehearsal anyway. I was never very good at sight-reading.

It's Not a Lake of Fire? Get Out of Here. No, Seriously, Get Out of Here.

[(Anonymous)]

"Sartre said that "Hell is other people.", although he could have broadened it to include their voice mail if he had lived long enough...
Unless we adopt the solipsist view and there are no other people. Can you imagine what a convention of solipsists would be like? What would they talk about? Really, it might be fun. Maybe next week we could get together in my head."
That's from my blog last winter, but I see now that I was in your head at the time.

Re: It's Not a Lake of Fire? Get Out of Here. No, Seriously, Get Out of Here.

[zenithblue.livejournal.com]

No one would want to come to an actual party in my head. We'd have to make it BYOA (Bring Your Own Antidepressents).

[sliding-doors.livejournal.com]

i'm kinda invisible right now. if only because i haven't been writing much at all even though things have been going on in my life. I have been writing in my other journal if you noticed. (if you didn't, it's ok. i know you're busy)

I still exist if I don't blog, but it's hard not to think that one doesn't.

OMG TEESHIRT IDEA

I BLOG; THEREFORE, I AM

[zenithblue.livejournal.com]

I would so wear a cyber-cartesian tee shirt. Rad.

I've been reading both blogs, just not commenting a lot lately, but you sound very...I don't know, engaged? Is that the right word? You sound involved in the world (whether the world of ideas or job hunting or whatever) right now and that is good.

[lagizma.livejournal.com]

Jeff, too, is overwhelmed by school, leading to a lack of lj-time, and for some reason, I've had trouble staying on top of ljland. Well, until this week, when I am at a Really Boring Work Meeting All Week, and I've gotten completely caught up.

We still exist when you log off! And we'll still be here when you have Lots Of Assignments Due and Need to Procrastinate On LJ.

[antarcticlust.livejournal.com]

I hear you on the flakiness. You don't want to know how many crap-posts I've written and deleted. I seem so unable to communicate right now.

Your magical gift is wending its way from the UK right now, and I will forward it along to you as soon as it arrives. Then you'll know that we're not imaginary!